Do you ever find yourself wondering about how much we take for granted in life, and then wonder how to fix it but not really do anything about it? Do you ever find that we take life in general for granted??
Anyway...So continues with the BS of my life. Dad didn't get drunk and kill himself yesterday, like he called at 2AM and threatened to do. No he ended up calling the cops on himself and getting sent to the hospital. But not just any hospital, oh no. The mental hospital. That's right...I mean, how drunk do you have to be before they stick you in a mental institute!?!? *sigh* So I'm here alone in this apartment with my faithful Roxas, playing Call of Duty and trying to forget that someone I hope to call is ACTUALLY going to call me.
It's times like this when I wish I had a boyfriend that could come over and cuddle with me all night long, so I wouldn't have to be here alone...Where is that person when I need him damn it!? Stupid boys who never have minutes >_< They call you the next day, making you think that they're all interested in you, and then you can't get a hold of them again for another week!! Damn it, is this all boys?? Or just ones that I seem to like?? o.O
Anyway...(T_T) Not that I mind being alone, I mean, mom did come over and offer to take me to my aunts for the night. I refused. I still need my time alone. Not to mention I have to comtemplate if I should really drive my dad back to North Dakota when he gets out in a few days...He gurantees a way for me to get home, by plane, or train, or bus or something like that...but I'm kinda scared to drive all the way there. That's like a 14 hour trip! Granted that most of it is High Way, so it won't be so bad. Mom thinks it's not a bad idea, since I'm not doing anything right now...I don't know...
Anyway, my Birthday is in a couple of months, I think that I'll put up some kind of random wish list. Right now all I'm sure I want is enough money to go to Sakura-Con in April...
Hmmm, maybe I should've gone back to lesa's....I'm so behind on my college crap it's not even funny. I think I'll just wing it instead of taking it to Mr. Bissell or Mrs. Ard. I think I'll send all my stuff in before Sakura Con on April 10th. That's what I'll shoot for.
*sigh* I'm so bored...I think I'm done for now. Oh!! And my baby dragon hatched, I'm so happy =^^= I'm gonna go gets him a girlfriend =^^=
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
It Starts...
I've done this blogging thing for years, but it's never been published. Random words, thoughts and feelings packed into a bulletin or an open document page on my computer. Never have they been so specified for someones viewing. Even now I don't know who will read this besides possibly my sister, but I think it's time to tell the world the things that end up in the trash or deleted by myspace.
Well for those of you who don't know, I've been living at my aunts house since about Halloween time. My parents are in their little tiff and I'm afraid that my mom is going to divorce my dad. I know that it would be in her best interest, but it still hurts...
I'm back at home now, this being only my second day back in my room for nearly half a year. I was kicked out of my room by my dad's cousin and his family. I've been sleeping on couches since then, I was just sick and tired of it. Guess what, dad's drinking. Yes right now. I was asleep and he slipped out for a "half a case" Right now I'm hiding in my room listening to the antics of SpongeBob on my tv, trying to drown out the sound of my buzzed father talking shit to little kids playing Call of Duty: Modern Warfare out in the living room. Unfortunately for me, my door is open, so the dog can come and go as he pleases.
We got into a little spat today, my dad n' I, when I caught him with a 12 pack of booze, over his willing or "wanting"ness to stop drinking. So in an effort to be my dad's backbone, cuz he obviously doesn't have one, I took his keys to the truck and his wallet. Considering that he's nearly crippled and not supposed to be driving anyway, I'd say this is an extremely good thing.
But it's not all bad. Mainly I'm glad to have my own space back. I mean, I adore all my cousins at my aunts, and of course I love my aunts company, but even though I had my own room there before my mom moved in, it still wasn't "my" space if you catch my drift.
I'm a little down in the dumps, cuz the first guy I've actually had a crush on since my ex is being a complete and utter asshole to me, and the way he makes me feel isn't even worth talking to him right now. But good news, I found someone else to give attention to when I was at RadCon, I wish he'd call...
Well in ending this randomness floating through my mind right now, I'm going to say a prayer for Aubrey, her family and the little girl who left them behind yesterday. All my love, R.I.P. Emily Angel Rose.
Well for those of you who don't know, I've been living at my aunts house since about Halloween time. My parents are in their little tiff and I'm afraid that my mom is going to divorce my dad. I know that it would be in her best interest, but it still hurts...
I'm back at home now, this being only my second day back in my room for nearly half a year. I was kicked out of my room by my dad's cousin and his family. I've been sleeping on couches since then, I was just sick and tired of it. Guess what, dad's drinking. Yes right now. I was asleep and he slipped out for a "half a case" Right now I'm hiding in my room listening to the antics of SpongeBob on my tv, trying to drown out the sound of my buzzed father talking shit to little kids playing Call of Duty: Modern Warfare out in the living room. Unfortunately for me, my door is open, so the dog can come and go as he pleases.
We got into a little spat today, my dad n' I, when I caught him with a 12 pack of booze, over his willing or "wanting"ness to stop drinking. So in an effort to be my dad's backbone, cuz he obviously doesn't have one, I took his keys to the truck and his wallet. Considering that he's nearly crippled and not supposed to be driving anyway, I'd say this is an extremely good thing.
But it's not all bad. Mainly I'm glad to have my own space back. I mean, I adore all my cousins at my aunts, and of course I love my aunts company, but even though I had my own room there before my mom moved in, it still wasn't "my" space if you catch my drift.
I'm a little down in the dumps, cuz the first guy I've actually had a crush on since my ex is being a complete and utter asshole to me, and the way he makes me feel isn't even worth talking to him right now. But good news, I found someone else to give attention to when I was at RadCon, I wish he'd call...
Well in ending this randomness floating through my mind right now, I'm going to say a prayer for Aubrey, her family and the little girl who left them behind yesterday. All my love, R.I.P. Emily Angel Rose.
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