A Dream or a Nightmare?

So last night I dreamt of something I possibly shouldn't have...
And this isn't the first time I've dreamt of it...
In fact, I've dreamt of it quite frequently lately....
And I don't know why...

There I was some weird kind of "after christmas" setting where we're taking down a tree that's in the front yard of what is assumed as my grandma's house. I'm talking to my mom, and laughing, everything is great! I even got to bring home a large stuffed bear, who very much resembles Klondike, the white bear sissy bought me for christmas a few years ago. Also I had a white mouse? I put them in the car and for some reason decided to lay on the grass wrapped in some sort of blanket. My head is kinda hanging off the edge, since the lawn is raised from the sidewalk about a foot or so...no...in my dream it's raised more like 5.5 feet from the ground. It's night time and the streetlights are on. They're still working on the tree as I lay there, and I look out toward the streetlight. I see a man cross the road behind me, and another person turns the corner and starts walking towards me. My heart kind of jumps, and for some reason I know exactly who it is, even though it's dark and he's wearing a hoodie. As he approaches I turn around on my stomach, staring at him. He stops just beneath me and pulls off his hoodie, he's smiling. For some reason he's wearing a chicks white hoodie with markings that resemble Louis Vuitton and a zip up sweater over that. I push myself up on my elbow and smile at him. I remember saying "What the hell are you wearing??" and laughing. I assume it's his girlfriends... I lean down and give him a hug and fluff his hair, which, betraying recent photo's, is short, manageable and very...normal looking. In fact, everything about him is....normal looking. Some how we end up in the house talking to the family who is cleaning the place top to bottom, some what resembling "spring cleaning" I remember lots of hugs and laughing...and even a few stray looks between us. I even remember at some point, while sitting next to him, I reached up behind him and ran my fingers through the back of his hair and pulled, causing a slight hiss and a little tension in his body as I grinned inwardly to myself.

I don't remember much more beside the fact that someone, Lala, I believe, came down the stairs and wanted us to play a game something along the lines of "gummy bingo" where the bingo chips were edible gummies. But that aside....

I've been dreaming about him alot lately. And it's always the same type of dream. He's happy, and flirty but he always comes to see me alone. What does it mean? Does it mean that I want him to be alone, because I need the love he used to give me? Does it mean he wants me back? Or is it just me that wants him back? I'm so confused. How can I like another person, and still dream of the one that left me? I've been laying in bed since 3am, thinking about writing this...now that I have I don't know what else to do...It's kind of scaring me actually...